DREAM

THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PART

He was in my dream and it actually looked like him.  That's the first time that's happened.

I was straddling his lap and I had my hands around his neck and our foreheads were pressed against each other and we were both crying and his eyes were closed and he was saying to me "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I should have known there were things you needed to do."

ANOTHER IMPORTANT PART

I saw Cannon, briefly.  I said "I'm sorry I didn't see you before you died."  And he simply replied "I know."

And now I'm awake and I don't know how to feel about anything.