All I want is a little job and my own shitty little apartment and my own little life.
(I hate feeling bad because I can't accomplish this, especially because I know it is SUCH A SMALL THING TO WANT OUT OF LIFE but for some reason I CAN'T SEEM TO DO IT.)
I keep telling myself that just because I can't get a job doesn't mean there's something inherently wrong with me; maybe I just haven't applied to the right one. Maybe the universe is trying to tell me that I shouldn't stay in Boone. Maybe I'll get a phone call on Tuesday from Appnet telling me that they think I'm perfect for the position, and can I come in Wednesday to start?
or not. or I'll have to give up my lease, stay here until August if I can afford to, and then move back to either Greenville to live with Mom or Jacksonville to live with Don, and feel like a big fat fucking failure.
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Sum. You really shouldn't feel bad about not getting a job right now.
ReplyDeleteAlso, you shouldn't be blaming yourself for "not accomplishing" getting a job.
Once you apply and interview, it is out of your hands.