officiality

so it's officially over, and I think what hurts the most is his apparent flippancy about the whole situation on account of my feelings, but not of his.

I've spent the last week trying to drink until I couldn't feel feelings anymore. Instead, I ended up drinking until I felt all of them. I also think I told everyone at the bar Sunday that if they had a penis, they were liars. I feel kinda bad about that but also don't feel anything at all.

I will get over this I will get over this I will get over this I will get over this and hopefully come out of it with something useful, like a stronger sense of self-respect.