An improvement, I suspect. I still haven't heard from any other jobs though...
Next week makes about 4 months of celibacy, hurrah. The longer it goes the easier it gets to recognize what you really want and what you think you really want at the moment. A lot of the interactions I've had with people before came more as a reflection of how I wanted other people to feel, and not necessarily what was in my best interest.
I kissed a boy the other night. I felt like I had dropped a stone into a deep well and put my ear up to listen for the splash, but I waited and waited and waited and the splash never came. So I pretty much just pushed him away after a minute or two and went home. That's pretty much been every male interaction I've had lately.
I've got hoop dreams, y'all. I've got hoop dreams real bad, and I don't need no man standing in the way of my SLAM DUUUNNNKKK!
The longer it goes the easier it gets to recognize what you really want and what you think you really want at the moment. A lot of the interactions I've had with people before came more as a reflection of how I wanted other people to feel, and not necessarily what was in my best interest.
ReplyDeleteyesssss. summer this is exactly how i feel about my previous interactions, and what i'm hoping to achieve by not doin' it for a long time.