So! The sun is set to emerge this weekend, and I do not have to work! I think Dan and I might be driving out to Jonas Ridge today to check on his parents' house. I like drives and I like Dan so it should be good. I also like sun, of which there has been far too little this winter. I'm hoping the coming spring will sweep fresh breezes through my life and get me motivated to, you know, DO SOMETHING, even if I don't 'go anywhere.' I want and need to be more creative. I need to start writing again. I think I am going to get a new ribbon for my typewriter (which, according to Sir Clark Frazier Hale III, Emperor of India) Staples did have at some point in time. I like the rhythm of rambling on my typewriter, and now when Dan asks me to keep him company at the studio I can try and be more productive too.
I need to GET MY ACT TOGETHER AND CLEAN MY GODDAMN APARTMENT. I'm living like a child, which I feel could be *vaguely* excusable in the frozen, depressed depths of winter, but the sunshine makes it seem pretty pathetic. Also! I need to clean the kitchen so I can make delicious lemon squares.
INTROSPECTIVE MOMENT:
I think I have a serious inability to live in the moment paired with a serious inability to make plans for fear of failure. (This makes it hard to, you know, form human connections through shared experience and also get ANYthing done.) I should work on these things.
In other news, West Virginia last weekend for Matt's Big Ugly Birthday Bash. I can't say anything except I'm so glad I went, and I never feel more myself than when I'm with these kids.
still gary
(and yes, you too emma and kristi and whoever else couldn't be there.)
Lemon squares!!
ReplyDeleteif you mail me lemon squares i will probably mouthgasm all over the place. JUST SAYIN'
ReplyDeletealso, i think everyone is caught in between fear of the present and fear of the future. It is a constant wobbling shuffle back and forth that i don't think gets easier or more graceful with age. be kind to yourself. Introspection is good, but maybe not when its been cold and yucky for so long. you are a neat a person! you are going to lovely and wonderful things and fuck all the other nonsense.
lemon squares and gary are two of the sexy things about this post.
ReplyDeletegirl, don't get me started.
ReplyDeleteand kristen! those were your squares at the nth, correct? I must commandeer your recipe!
Yeaaa thems was mine! I mostly started with what Paula Deen told me to do
ReplyDeletehttp://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/paula-deen/lemon-bars-recipe/index.html
but then I changed lots of things. I am not great at following recipes, plus I was doubling because of the number of people at the Nth, so I don't know that I have a recipe resembling what I actually did. My cooking style is to lump things in til it looks right. So you can start with that, if you want. But if you want a cooking aide, I would volunteer!