mmm hmm

So I'm feeling a little better.

Took Kristi's advice; read Pattern Recognition again, for *gasp* my own personal enjoyment! Finished it in three days. I can't remember the last time I was able to finish a book in such a small amount of time. Oh, the wonders that can happen when you stubbornly dedicate yourself to doing something *for* yourself.

(I know it was starting to get real bad because even hottie professor told me, very seriously, to "Take it easy" the other day. He said he thinks my baking is good for me. I'm fairly certain, if things got any worse, he was going to be ready to write me off as going over the deep end.)

Tuesday night I finally made those chocolate and butterscotch chip cookies. Daaaammmnn they were good.

More good news: Hottie professor is totally on board with continuing our indigenous Guatemalan paper after my graduation, so I don't have to worry about contributing a lot to that particular project at the mo. And I'm actually looking forward to doing something academic without some sort of sick grade-motivation, for the first time in my life.

Potential good news: Tim says I'm first in line for a job at Earthfare as soon as some other chick actually leaves. Apparently she delayed her last day again. I hope she moves on to bigger and better things soon so I can go ahead and start working before I have to actually fork over a million dollars for my apartment(s).

Not really news, but another good thing: Time spent with the Ginger makes me smile.

Great news: Typed all my graduation announcements on my super cool electric typewriter I purchased from Sir Clark Frazier Hale III, Emperor of India.

I had a conversation with Matt Saturday night about life and schtuff. He, (once again), told me to stop measuring my life as some sort of system of achievements, and instead just accept that it's all a continuous process and that one can't convince one of one's self-worth based off of arbitrary accomplishments. "People are human, we're made to fuck up! You've fucked up, I've fucked up, and look, we're both still here! And we're going to keep going! And that's so fucking beautiful!" (not verbatim, but the gist). Matt is one of the few people I genuinely look up to.

I'm excited for all my friends and what they all are trying to do with their lives. Whether it's going to Germany, or teaching art, or saving mountain tops from being removed, or making music, or just working on their garden and compost.